And so the week [or should I say, the two weeks] ended pretty badly..
After the trials, I felt so so SO so bad that I almost gave up. Yeah. I almost gave up studying. I felt so so So so stupid! It’s just that I was not prepared. Maybe half prepared for math, lit n accounts. but for econs, if it was not because we knew that oligopoly n macroeconomic policy I gonna come out [although I didn’t answer the oligopoly one], I’ll be NOT PREPARED AT ALL!
I was so so SO so under the clouds throughout the trials.. huh! [&sigh]
I dunno what to do.. I was so so So so scared that I’m not gonna make it to uk, that I got it all messed up in my head now..
However, lucky I got you all— friends.
The night b4 last paper [econs paper 1], I was really giving up. I could answer only 20% of a past year paper.. I knew that I’m gonna screw up. Then, when I was ‘lepak’ing with my friends after rc that night at café, this happened:
Me: weh, I’m dead man, for tomorrow! You’re lucky that you didn’t take econs.
Aiman Tiger: why?
Me: I am not ready. I can’t even understand more than half of the question!
Aiman Tiger: Relaks-la! Trials je kot!
Me: Easy for you to say…
Aiman Tiger: Cummon- econs is like, how many chapters?
Aiman Tiger: and we have how many days till A Level?
Me: around 38
Aiman Tiger: then, if you study everyday for two hours, then you can make it.
Me: [epiphany] you’re right! I can read one chapter a day, and complete in quick!
Aiman Tiger: yeah! You can even do one chapter for 3 days! And it will only take 18 days. Cummon! Then you can put it to bed!
And then, on my way back to my apartment [which was 500 meters away-yes, it’s a really long walk], I was thinking about Tiger’s plan. He’s right. Actually, I have to calm down, and concentrate! Focus.. enough playing, loitering around, etc.. enough of that.
And, I will start from tomorrow[I mean, today], and do the same for other subjects as well..—I hope [I mean, I have to!]
Wish me luck. I need it.